We are now at the beginning of August. Which makes me happy. July is so.... blah. I have been feeling that exact way, too. And apparently I looked that way, because I got an email from a friend asking if I was okay. Yes, I'm okay, sometimes I let the blah catch up, and I wallow in it for a few days. then I decide I don't like it here, and get out. I'm kind of roller coaster like that. I always assumed most women were. maybe they are not. This month's Ensign, helped me get myself out of my funk. I haven't been running. And since I read while I run, I haven't been reading my Ensign. Both of those things have created this latest funk. But after a 3 mile run, I feel great, I have a new wind in my sail. Why I let myself get so far away from where I feel good.... I will never know.
Kids go back to school in 2 weeks. It'll be nice. I will also miss a busy home. But my mother in law said the other day, as I was describing my funk, "I used to crave alone time" Apparently she used to stay up really late at night to get it. Can I just mention how much I love her. She always has the right thing to say. I kind of figure, if she has felt this way too, I will be okay. She is one of the most awesome people I know. She's uplifting, non- judgmental, humble, nurturing, I could go on and on. She raised 8 amazing children.
Also, in July, to add to the Blah, we learned that our dear pediatrician has cancer. He was sitting with his hand under his chin and felt an almond size lump under his ear. Went into the ENT and had it biopsied. He has done a round of radiation, and most likely chemo will be next after his next scan next week. Come on now. He's been taking care of people, our children, almost his entire life. Where is that guarantee. That gold start that says you have done well, no trials for you. Some of you may think, he's just your pediatrician, find a new one. But some of you also know, especially if you have a child with 'extra; medical needs, when you find the right one. A good one. The one who loves that child almost as much as you do. You NEED them.
Anyway. I don't want to post a downer post. I am happy. My kids are happy. I'm starting to itch for change. I need to just settle, or it maybe my husband who gets crazy.
3 comments:
I feel for you. I know that funk but mine usually hits in January when the month is long and I have no money left from the holiday(s). I love that picture of the rain and wish it would do a lot more of that around here more often but I know what you mean about mother-in laws....I feel that same way about mine too. I hope you can get running again and feel like yourself again.
Did you get our crazy start-of-August storm this morning? Love those! They always pull me out of a funk. Too bad a don't have a mother-in-law yet. . . but I do have my great EFY kids.
I might be working next week, I might not. But I promise I haven't been avoiding you because I don't like you. I've been avoiding you because I have been sick every weekend this round of EFY. Not to mention for the past 2 weeks now. It has morphed into a respiratory thing and is starting to feel better, so hopefully I will be able to come and play again soon.
Hooray for August!!
Love ya Kelli!
A funk is def normal....well at least I hope so too. When we moved I think mine was a little too long, but I am out of it and mine usually is crying for some find myself time, breathing time.
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