Missed

My blog has been sorely neglected. I have been busy. Blogging takes more then the 5 minutes I have here and there to actually sit at the computer. And If I have more time, I have been playing Scrabble with my sisters. It's my guilty pleasure. And, I am feeling a bit overwhelmed right now. My life ebbs and flows. I feel like a wonderful wife and mother, at times. And then other times I feel like I am lacking in that department. I am in that department right now. Our family dynamic is not what I want it to be. I am struggling with trying to fix it. My nerves are a bit raw from the kids screaming at each other, and I can't figure out how to fix it. 5 of 6 and 4 of 6 have this love hate thing happening. It used to be more love than hate, but recently it has been 90% hate. The spend the day fighting and screaming and hitting and biting. They are 2 two year olds. I can't reason with them, I can ask nicely, over and over and over and over. My oldest has picked all of my worst traits to mimic. It's like hearing myself at my worst. My 3rd, blames everything that is wrong in his life on every one else, and is terrible to 4 of 6.
I know this will pass, we are doing what we are supposed to be doing. I am raising them the right way. I just wish this would pass a little quicker.

Torin Wallace 2 year old cutie pie on TV show (downs syndrome)

I saw this posted on another blog, and wanted to share with my friends. At the end of the clip, listen to how many kids the Drs. mom has. I love it.

Mom Shoulders

I looked at my shoulder this morning, as I was getting ready to take 6 of 6 to the drs. (She has been running a fever of 100+ for the past 3 days). They were filthy. A little green, a touch of blue, brown smudges toward the back. And honestly, they smelled a little like sour milk.
As I was getting ready to pull it off to trade in for a new nice smelling shirt, I paused. I realized that I am proud of my stinky, dirty, grimy shoulders. They were smudged with green because 6 of 6 is sick with a sinus infection, and I spent a good portion of the night rocking a sick baby. Blue because 4 of 6 had been coloring with blue marker at school, and because I am blessed with the opportunity to stay home with my kids, I was smeared when I hugged her as she got off the bus yesterday. Brown because 5 of 6 fell this morning while she was playing out side in the dirt. The tears mixed with the dirt and when I picked her up to kiss her better, it made mud.
And smelly, because I have been spit up on, almost daily for the past 7 months.

Waiting

I have a post. But, I am waiting for Trent to load the pictures from his camera, that go with it..... Be back soon.
Maybe.

A New Direction

Before I get into my post, I want to share with you, what I came upon Sunday morning.
This is what we are calling The Great Peep Massacre. My niece, tucked all of her peeps in to bed. 5 of 6 collected every one's peeps from around the house, and bit their heads off.

I just want to share a few things I came away with, after listening to conference this session. I am sure everyone listening, came away with something different. Something that they needed, something that their family needed. The message I got, was that I, well, we, needed to make sure our kids know where we stand. We need to make sure our kids know our standards, values, and know our testimony. We have decided that we need to have more formal FHE messages, that will give us the ability to teach our children. We don't want our children to get their morals and values from the world.
As part of that, last night, we listened to Dieter F. Uchtdorf's talk from the Priesthood session. His talk was on patience. Patience with ourselves, and others. We related that to their interactions with each other, their schoolwork and their chores. Also, our disciplining of them and our desire to be more patient with them.
We hope that this will help us to provide a more welcoming home for them. A shelter from the world, and a place the can be comfortable, and most of all, happy.

Easter Weekend

i think this was the busiest weekend I have ever had.
We wrestled... We do that a lot in our family.
Luckily we got most of the weekend documented.....
My sister Kayla came up and helped.
We watched movies

We made jam. This is the jalapeno jam. we also made strawberry.
And we dipped strawberries in chocolate. We dipped LOTS of strawberries. We dipped so many strawberries, I didn't even care that the 2 little girls kept getting in to the fridge and eating them.
We dyed eggs. These are the tie dyed eggs.

Then we let the kids do their own.

The Easter bunny hid the eggs out side, then it snowed, so they hunted for eggs buried in the snow.


But, I have to say the highlight of the weekend, was conference. Can you think of anything better than Easter falling on conference weekend? It was a perfect weekend, full of family, reasons to be grateful and being spiritually fed. I hope I can keep the messages I heard, in my heart so I can draw on them when I need them. It was an awesome weekend. I am always a little sad when 4 o clock Sunday hits.

APRIL FOOLS

This is what we did on our first day of spring break.
Tomorrow is a trip to DI to find ties, to do this
I'll take pictures when they are done.
Saturday we will dying the eggs.
We will also be making jam with the gobs of strawberries I bought.