Big Day

It can't be the 21st already. 2 weeks ago I scheduled my u/s for the 21st, and I still need another week. I called my mother in law yesterday in a panic, "can you watch my kids on Tuesday, I have an ultrasound" who forgets their ultra sound? Such is life. I should be 6 weeks. I really don't like that life goes by this fast. My 3 year old is now almost nine. (remember when 30 was old? remember when it was 'other peoples kids' who were getting baptized?) This is MY life. And it's passing me by. The baby in this picture is now 14 months, and walking. We're having another one in less than 5 months. I STILL have a baby, what am I having another one for. I'm a little nervous. I'm still not feeling this little one move. I seem to forget between each baby when that happens. It always makes me nervous when people tell me they felt there baby move at 13 weeks, 16 weeks, 18 weeks. I'm 19 weeks with #6, and nothing. It always sends my into a panic or 'what ifs' Hopefully I will come home today with my fears calmed. That's all I need. I don't what to know 'what' we are having, just that they are OK. I know, a glutton for punishment. I kick myself for not finding out, every time I walk out of an u/s not knowing the sex. But it's worth it when the dr. says "it's a......." Although she kept saying "look at all of her hair" when I was delivering 3 of 5, so I'm thinking is it a girl? then HE peed all over every one in the room. Nope it's a boy.
And I just want to add a plug for the 1 yr old. I LOVE this age. She is learning a few signs, and can sign please , candy, thank you, and more. And once she learns the sign, she says the word. Yesterday I asked her if she wanted a new diaper, and she went and got one, and laid down. Then after that was done, she went into her room and got some clothes. The kid Loves to carry around her clothes. She has always like bed time, and I'm enjoying every minute of it, because I know this will not last, I know that if she cries when I put her to bed, there if something wrong, or she's not ready. I put her down at 9 last night (It was a late night) and listened to her play with a stuffed animal that sings when you push it's foot, for an hr. Perfectly happy, just playing.