No, It's not the eggs. But I did want to show off the different shades of green and blue we've been getting out of our chickens. We also discovered a spot they have been secretly laying eggs. Of course we had to get rid of those, we have no idea how old they are, but we have been getting 3-5 a day, and it would be more if they would lay in 1 place. What I've been stressing about is an upcoming ultra sound. My dr. does them at 18-19 weeks, and I'm 16 weeks tomorrow, so I'm guessing we'll be scheduling one at my appt next week. I almost don't want one. I don't want to know the sex, isn't that why most people have them?
So, I'm asking you. Is it a stressful event for you? I don't remember having anxiety about an US until after 4 of 5. I never thought "what if something is wrong" Until my subsequent pregnancies. Same thing with miscarriage. I never considered a mc until after the one I had between 4 and 5. Then this pregnancy and the last, I stressed until 12 weeks. I guess stress is the wrong word. But it did consume a good deal of my thoughts about being pregnant.
Is worrying about something not being right, saved for us that have dealt with birth defects? Either 1st hand, or 2nd? Or is it a common concern? I know "what if's" are useless. And I am not worried about the after finding out part. I feel like I could handle pretty much anything I was given. But there is still some anxiety, about getting to that point.
My dr. did tell me she was going to order a level ll, because of 4 of 5's problems, So if there are problems, we will know. With 4 of 5, the normal u/s didn't even show the 2 holes in her heart, or the extra skin behind the neck, that is a common marker for DS. But, I 'm sure they didn't look, because I was 27. Maybe they did know, and didn't say. That u/s took 70 minutes from the time they started until I was done. I have never been in one for more than 20. They kept coming back to check one more thing. WHo knows, who cares. But, I will feel better come May, when all is said and done.
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I completely understand about the anxiety of the ultrasound. I was so nervous for the whole 6 weeks it was scheduled for before hand and then the last week hit before hand and I was even more nervous than the previous 5. Once it's done and over with, you'll feel much better. I think the anxiety just comes from the thought of the actual procedure, painless as it is but it's that old adage...."Fear of the unknown." I don't know if that helps but at least you're not alone in THAT place.
I've thought about how I would feel if we have another and I think I would definitely worry now that I know about all the things that can go "wrong". We didn't know about Goldie's DS until she was born, but my u/s with her was also very long and then I had another one towards the end of my pregnancy. Neither of them showed anything abnormal.
always. i really had anxiety with this last one, and it wasn't even over the sex of baby. both of ours kids were traumatic, and i guess you just realize that things aren't always just right, and why wouldn't it happen to me? you know? so it isn't that i don't think that i could handle what was given, it was just the "knowing". I guess maybe just the finding out, it can kinda be a blow. anyway, yes. I know EXACTLY what you mean. things will be great :)
I did get nervous. Not that I would care if there were problems they are my babies, but it is getting yourself ready to hear bad new just in case. You have more of a reason so I don't think you are over reacting I think it is normal.
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