Trent working long hrs with out overtime pay because he is salaried.
The fact that I have nothing outside my home.
My back.
Spencer peeing his pants all the time all of the sudden.
I know I just need to get over the small things, and the big things. I really am happy I am able to stay at home with my kids. I wouldn't rather be doing anything else. But I have moments when my husband gets invited to go back packing or hiking or to Vegas on a business trip, or today to the U game, where I get a little jealous. Because guess what I get to do. The same thing I do every day. Then sometimes he takes older kids, which leaves me with no help or interaction with anyone but 2 yr old kids.
When Trent works long hrs, his home time is shorter and he doesn't want to do anything or talk to anyone. Which is hard because I am here all day with no one to have a conversation with. I talk to my sisters a lot, but it's full of home maker interruptions. On both sides of the conversation.
I was also just diagnosed with an auto immune disease that causes my body to attack the tissues that connect my hips and spine. It's called spondyloarthritis. Sounds like a dinosaur. Bums me out.
And the littlest boy has decided to pee his pants again. 6-7 times a day.
I totally realize these things are temporary. Just little bumps. But when they all happen at once, it brings on a little melancholy.
I guess I should start posting when things are going well so you don't think I am depressed and down on life all the time. This is just what's going on right now and I decided to pick up the blog again, at the same time.
And I have a cold
Thanksgiving is 3 weeks away, and I have to stop myself from the beginnings of preparing. I love this holiday. I love hosting this holiday. I really do love where I am in life. Even the not so exciting parts. Even the hard depressing parts. I know what I am doing will not cause me, in 40 yrs, to look back and wish I had done something different. I am doing what I am supposed to.
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